Sitting here thinking about this tiny new life growing inside of my, a sound catches my ear, someone is in tears. I turn from side to side, to find that it's Amy, my boss. I watch as she pulls a file from the cabinet, and watch as two beneficiaries walk into the vault to claim their fathers last belongings from his safe deposit box. Then i see the name on the file, and i can feel my heart sink. Why does it have to be someone i knew? A sweet little old man that kept me company most days as we processed his work through the drive thru. Sure he was quiet, but i suppose i've always had a heart for elderly people, completely intrigued by the stories they have hidden away in a bank of knowledge.
Death is a thought that completely overwhelms me. I know that we all are born and we all die, but that really doesnt make it any easier for me. I know that those who have been redeemed by Jesus Christ will live forever with him, and ill be there too, but what about those who wont be there? They will NEVER be there if they die without knowing Him.
I definitely think it is a gift that my heart is so soft, but sometimes it just feels like a whole lot of emotions pouring out of me.
We are having a little girl, and her life is meant to be something incredible. The Lord has some amazing plans for her, as ive already felt under attack a lot during this pregnancy, but the Lord is my rock and we're doing amazing. As im writing this i can feel her pushing and kicking against my waistband, as if she knows im writing about her. Through this tiny life inside of me, many who were going to experience eternal death, will get to experience eternal life. She will be an amazing influence in the world for Jesus, and i cant wait to see her beautiful tiny body in just over 20 weeks. This life is beautiful, cherish every moment you can, and cherish the moments you have with others, as we never know who's up next. We all have to face the big guy, are you ready? The good thing is, He wants to take each of us as we are, dont come to Him after you change, it may be to late, He wants your love and attention now. I encourage you to renew your life in Jesus, as we experience death all around us, all the time.
Celebrating new life,
Mommy :)
Mrs Miller :)
Kales :)
Sis :)
And just plain ol Kaylee
1 comment:
You are NEVER "just plain ol Kaylee"!! I am sorry to hear of the loss of a "freind". I think it is so important to have these feelings of sadness for others, if we didn't we wouldn't have so much passion for living now. Those who don't pay attention to death around them, or have no feelings about it, probably don't love and enjoy life and the people in it. Enjoy every day, and that beautiful girl growing inside of you!!!
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